Wednesday, June 6, 2012

Under the Knife

I made a decision back after my original lumpectomy that I wanted corrective cosmetic measures eventually. My surgeon still apologizes every time I see him but it was an aggressive tumour ; I don't fault him in the least.
I am a woman and I have my share of vanities. And though a caved-in breast isn't something that most anyone would see, I feel self-conscious when I wear anything low-cut or a bathing suit. I'm doing this for me - selfish but a harmless & healthy selfish. I still won't have a matching set - the initial surgery & radiation saw to that - but I will have a more "cosmetically pleasing result" as Dr. Stefanison calls it. The actual scars/battle marks won't bother me.
Not that this is going to be an easy row to hoe. After radiation I can't have a simple implant. I am going to have a DIEP flap reconstruction.
I will be going in on Monday, with an anticipated stay at Toronto General of 4-5 days followed by a couple of months off to recover. If you're in the Toronto area I'm totally counting in a smooth recovery and I would love knitterly company!!! I am not deluding myself about the pain and physio that will be involved but for me it's one small thing I can do to reclaim what Cancer thought it could take from me.
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5 comments:

  1. Prayers for a speedy and minimally painful if non-painful recovery. I would LOVE to come and knit with you anytime my friend.

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  2. I'll be thinking good thoughts during and after the procedure. Maybe we can get together one day.

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  3. Do what you need to do. Best of luck to you.

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  4. I'll be thinking of you. Hoping for a speedy recovery.
    Hugs

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  5. Sending loving and healing thoughts to you from San Francisco!

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