Keeping On

Not much to say.
I worked most of yesterday but went to Emerg at lunch to have my hand looked at. It was still quite swollen, and though I could make a fist & see the knuckles, it occurred to me that a bone in the back of my hand may be broken. It wasn't, just deeply bruised. My own fault, I don't expect sympathy for that.
I'm not normally a hitter/thrower. I don't generally act out/speak in anger because it is apart always just hurtful and unproductive. Case in point.
The puppies have been a lovely distraction and comfort.








I called in a personal day today; not to wallow, just try to clear my head and not have to put on a happy face.
I've had stretches of wry him out and not dwelling, then a memory comes out of nowhere, stabs me in the back, and reduces me to tears. I know that the stretches will become longer and the memories more sweet than bitter, but it's gut-wrenching at the mo.
But I've been through worse. I'll get through this.
Almost done the Bernat baby blanket.


Time for a walk.


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Stages of grief

I kind of fucked up my hands earlier today.





I haven't Googled it, but I know that anger is a stage of grief. And when your Beloved decides that you're not *his* beloved, grief ensues.
At least this time I have puppies.
This is all I can clearly type right now.
I will be fine. I can still knit.
Again.




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Good Morning

I'm closing tonight, so I enjoyed a bit of a lie-in this morning. Petey is cute; he's getting very good at differentiating between my being awake and reading or being on my phone, and my waking up. I love this guy!!!
I am sitting outside now, working at the picnic table, tempting the weather gods but enjoying the perfect temp and breeze. The puppies are 'round the side digging holes.

Yesterday was going very well, getting work done at work, (I know!!) and feeling good. Pain, but T3's had it well in hand. Then early afternoon I could feel The Migraine coming and by the time I got home I was hitting the Rx. I sorted out the puppies then laid down for a nap.
While Petey sleeps with me at night, he can't jump up on the bed himself. Chica can, so naps are her turn. She'll kiss me a bit, then play ball with herself, (bringing the ball up, nosing it off, fetching it, repeat) or gnaw on her fave chewy.
I woke up around 7:00 - totally not going to get to my Group - still feeling druggy. I think I had leftover rhubarb cake for dinner. I seriously can't remember ...  Migraines make me seek out all the carbs, it's instinctual, and I generally allow my cravings to run rampant. One of these times I am going to find a food cure beyond the salt 'n vinegar chips and Coke that Julie put me on to.
I then passed the evening knitting on my Lorna's Laces Shepherd Sock linen stitch scarf, watching Sense8, and SoundHounding songs and have some new beats in my playlist. I have to say, the Netflix original series have some well thought out and matched soundtracks.

I had finished the Moss Cardigan on Sunday but puppies cannot be trusted with blocking on the floor as they chase each other with the enthusiasm of siblings!! So last night I planned to do it this morning so that it could dry on my bed by the time I got back home from work. Love a ceiling fan!!
You all know what a proponent of swatching I am. I swatch, wash the swatch and everything thereafter is based on swatch maths.

So when I Soaked the sweater, squeezed dry, rolled in the towels and started laying it out, the feeling of wrongness was surprising. It's all sorts of too long, and my row gauge is always tight, my garter is a thing of beauty, so this is unprecedented.

 I called Julie and couldn't quite think of what to say at first. She started to think that something was "really wrong". So after agreeing that this is not tragic, I'm going to let it dry and then when she receives it, she'll probably toss it in the washer. It *is* superwash - cursed processing!! - so if that fails, we're calling it a long cardi! LOL. I love Julie!!

I am quite pleased with the way the striping has turned out, especially laid flat with the back visible as well.

And speaking of my bed, I am well pleased with my silk duvet. I still miss a sheet layer sometimes, but that's because no matter how hot it is, I need a covering of some sort. So I may still add that layer back in, but for now I've been making do.

There is still time to help me reach my goal in support of the Cdn Cancer Society's Relay for Life. Thank you <3 p=""> 

All the Things

I knit in the baby blanket last night while out with some colleagues for a going away drinks do at my local.
This morning I slept in a bit, walked over to Tim's for a coffee as I'm out of Tassimo pods. I know, I don't know how this happened. Then I was fit for Churchmouse linen stitch scarf. Progress was made.
After a nap, I packed up the CEY Moss Cardigan and headed to Crabby's to watch the FIFA ladies Canada vs China match. Happy for a win, even if it was in the last minutes.


I made excellent progress! I calculated my yarn consumption at .04km/hr. This includes eating time and alcohol consumption. It doesn't sound very fast, but I don't have much to compare it to.

Anyway, I'm 5 days T3 free! Stomach bug notwithstanding its been a decent week. Though the abdominal pain was kicking off today, I got by. Taking it one day at a time, I won't endure pain I don't have to but I like the clear-headed feeling.


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Relay for Life

Down to the last week, so click the link and help ensure that the research for into early detection, less invasive and more effective treatments, and the day-to-day assistance for Survivors that makes tremendous less arduous continue.



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Linen Stitching

I can't really blame linen stitch for being slow, the 450 sts isn't making for rapid progress.
But I've been feeling well and truly wrecked the last couple of days. While my abdominal pain was ghastly over the weekend, I've been pain free and on medicated since Monday evening.
I don't know if it's some sort of virus, some off salad or my stomach just doesn't know what to do without codeine, but I've been getting by on guts and will power and sleeping.
I've also been feeling incredibly pained through my legs and feet. I'm sure that this is from mostly not feeling the creaks of age whilst on the codeine. I truly can not wait to be off of the drugs. As much as I need them, I don't know any more why anything hurts or what to do about it.
But I have managed to keep knitting a bit. I am very much enjoying the artistic colour work as the three colourways play and shift into and around each other.



And I am reminded about how much I really love fingering weight yarn. It is the perfect weight for making everything ideal!!

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Startitis

I don't normally come down with this. I generally have a major deadlined project, a loosely deadlined project, and a personal project or two in the go. And about twenty or so in the offing.

Julie's yarn arrived, or more specifically, I received a postal notice about the arrival of the yarn, but it's been "that time of the month" this past weekend.
I barely made it through Friday. Actually, I made to the last 1/2 hour, took a "big codein" and then took a wee rest in my car before driving home because driving with the codein kicked in was a lesser evil than driving in the pain I was in. and thanks to Karen and another Karen for checking on me or else I might not have woken up until I in desperate pain again. Saturday was all about keeping track of when I had taken/should take the variety of Rx. Sunday was not much better. I had to call in Monday - bad morning and I had to come down from all that codein!! - and then I suffered from an unprecedented case of startitis. So I wound yarn and did this


(Peter is always helping!!) and cast on and took this


to Group. Even though I was working on Elise's shawl after I woke up at noon.

I know. But he/she who is without sin ...

I will pick up the yarn to finish the CEY Moss cardigan before work tomorrow, that will be my mission thereafter. But until then I have lovelies to fondle.


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