Unversary

Today is my 2nd unversary. I wasn't sure how I would feel about it, I tried not to give it a lot of forethought or premeditation. 

Anyone who knows me knows how much I loved celebrating my wedding anniversary. It was truly & deeply special to me. I'm not going to get all maudlin - I don't even feel all maudlin - but suffice it to say, it was the most important day of the year.

So I wasn't sure what I would feel this year. I am surprisingly ambivalent. No, that's not quite right. Surprisingly implies that there is an expectation to not feel ambivalent or that there is a predictable or typical emotion. And I'm not really ambivalent - more like I'm able to remember with a detachment that this was a day that held a special place in my heart but I don't have any compelling emotions (positive or negative) about this day. I can't unremember the date but it's not significant in my life right now.

I like who I am right now and that's worth celebrating every day! In just over a month I will be 2 years a Survivor - now that's an Anniversary!!!